"Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth. Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert."
Have you ever been in the wilderness? Stumbling aimlessly around the desert? Have you given up hope that you will ever find your way out?
I have been there. I spent a good majority of the last year there. And when God gave me this verse, I had nothing but my brokenness, a desperate faith, and a very great and faithful loving God. Nothing in my circumstances looked any more hopeful than they had the day before.
And, I think, I was finally exactly where He had wanted me the whole time.
I began to read this verse over and over. I thought if I consumed myself with it, maybe I would believe it. Maybe I would believe that God had promised it to ancient Israel and also - incredibly! - promised it to me in my dark valley.
"Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past." Walk away, Melody. Don't look back. Look forward. Fix your eyes on Me. And let go of the hurt and pain. Give your wounded heart to Me because I Am the ultimate healer of shattered hearts. And I paid the price for all the selfishness that got you into this mess.
"Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth. Will you not be aware of it?" Look at Me! I am doing something! Something new! Will you notice when I move? Will you give Me the glory when it happens?
And I did a fair amount of asking, "When is "now", God? Like today would be nice!"
"I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert." Really? A roadway in my wilderness? A river in my desert? I don't think you realize how bad it is here, Jesus. Are you sure you are big enough and good enough and love me enough to care for my issues? After all, what seems impossible and hopeless to me pales in comparison to the mother with no food to feed her babies in Africa. So many truly life or death problems in the world. Do you really have time and energy to spend on my broken heart when there is so much despair in the world?
And I am here to tell you today that God has done something new. Something unexpected and so obviously from Him that I can do nothing but stand in awe of His grace and His endless LOVE. He has made a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert. In ways I could never have even imagined to ask.
Are all my problems instantly solved? My every desire satisfied? No.
But I KNOW that what He has given has come directly from His hand.
And I trust Him to be good.
And I feel so perfectly loved.
And I have learned to trust.
To pour my hopelessness out to Him and then walk away from the hurt and watch my God act.